I went to my friends house last night (which I haven't seen in a month) to go hangout, spend the night and stuff. About an hour into being over there we decided to smoke because I had four g's on me atm. Well we smoked & of course we got hungry. This was a horrible situation and I was so indecisive when it came to debating on if I wanted to eat or not. I ended up eating four slices & felt like shit. We went to bed & I got woken up to the words "Do you wanna smoke?" So I was like "uhh, fuck yeah.". Of course we smoked & I caved in & ordered Pizza Hut telling myself I wasn't gonna eat that much. I ended up eating half of the pizza & 5 bread sticks, shortly after I started making myself feel like shit telling myself I was gonna gain a shit load of weight & I had no phone to call my dad to tell him to come get me. I wanted to leave, I would start to tear up thinking badly of myself. I went to my brothers house (he wasn't home) & layed on the couch catching up on old tv shows and I began to feel super nasty about myself. I ended up throwing up about three times this whole day (no forcing myself though) It just happened. I still feel like I'm gaining weight even though it doesn't work like that, I've been bloated all day long with that full feeling in my tummy & a major heartburn. I'm not sure how to cut down on my calories without continuing eating after I eat a certain amount of bites. That's why I think it'd be more simple to just starve myself for a few weeks/days until I feel at last a little better about myself. I think my best bet is to just go buy healthy/ low carb groceries.